Jan 20 of Progress So Far (Year2)

I've decided to share about my progress so far in the creative field. *ooh cat* Just to keep track of myself. LOL.

I wanna make it straightforward, short and sweet so there goes!

I hadn't taken any painting or drawing classes since I was a toddler not even in high school except for the SENI subject which is compulsory which I've only learned how to say colours and painting techniques in Bahasa Melayu, so I have a blank canvas on arts, so I believe this is why I can pick up easier of what my lecturers have been teaching me in The One Academy Penang since I don't have a habit and concept of how art should be executed in my brain so I just absorb what they are teaching me and apply it cause that's the only way I know.

High School Works

Some covers I've designed for the school mag. So basically just to make it easy, it's Very simple trust me. It's just basic stuff like lines, patterns, fonts, brushes done in photoshop. I hated traditional mediums, hate as in I try to avoid using watercolour in seni exams or anything at all that needs me to draw on paper cause I am really bad at it since I don't know how to use it.  The only thing I draw is ELMO hahaha.


Design Works in College

More recent ones I have worked on. These were done after a long time absence in designing in photoshop because The One Academy foundation year sorta focuses more on basic foundation drawing skills so only a few subject has designing on it. So I sorta forgot how to do the styles I've tried in high school and went for a more vector art style which I quite fancy. and I think vector art is sho cute!

Digital Painting



These are also more recent ones. I actually prefer traditional mediums that digital now. I dont know why but my view and thought might change after some time but currently yea, I'm not that familiar with digital still.

Cartoon character design

Some extra stuff to share. These are the only traditional pencil drawings I scanned, the rest I'm too lazy to scan and take photos and some are not even with me now. So yea maybe next time!

Okay since I major in Illustration I wanna share a bit more detail on painting itself, and now I've learned til acrylic so far so yeah. Just to show ya'll some progress.

My first portrait painting. LMAO. Look how bad is it. XD!!! Sorry Pavarotti! 

1st object painting, which I think is way better than the Pavarotti one. That Pavarotti macam hantu.

2nd portrait painting. You can see folded lines and scraped off bits because I was so frustrated with myself I wanted to just chuck it away. By that time I should have known how to paint human skin but I still failed at it. *The shirt part looks awesome right? That's because Mr Leong the Principal painted it! Awesome awesome awesome took him like 10 mins*


Final project. We had to find different references and make a composition out of it. So I chose Harry Potter since they have a lot of high resolution photos of the characters!!! :D *Click to enlarge for details*

Hermoine Close up

Snape close up

Buildings on fire close up

Illustration 2

 Portrait painting again! But this time on Gesso! Gesso's the texture created you see on the canvas. So this was the 1st few layers of base colour.

 Touch up layer beginning stage


Finished! I ruined the painting with those dark patches. Sigh. Peiyen Y U SO DUMB!
Gotta brush up some skills and art sense!

BTW, HUGH LAURIE I LOVE YOU!<3 LOL. I sound like some stalker maniac. T_T

 Close ups~

 So yea that's all I wanna share for now! I hope I can do better next time! I'm still practicing and it takes time to improve. I still can't believe I came this far!! I definitely see myself improving after I have put my feet down and decided to work a little harder. :) So yea, everyone's that's stuck or struggling, believe me, once you have pass that stage, things will get easier, but obviously, harder obstacles will come along, just overcome it and you'll excel!!

Sooo.. Blessed Chinese New Years everyone! I'm having a week's holiday next week :) That's why I can blog now. HAHA! ANG PAO come come! :D

Oh yeah, One more thing...

 I've been nominated for TOP10 Awards in my college! I was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO VERYYYYYYYYYYY Extremelyyyyyyy excited and happy and excited and HONORED! All sorts of happy thoughts floating in my head when I received the news! Cause it's like, all the hardwork and been paid off! The lecturers actually like what they see T___T I mean, the things I draw lah. :D THANKS AWESOME LECTURERS Woooohooooo.

BTW, I totally edited this photo. My face looks like a fat mama chipmunk in the ori one. Gosh, why can't the fats go down to my BOOBS. hahaha! I'm kidding :) I just don't see myself that chubby in real life (RIGHT???? hahaha. I was hoping for a right...) but apparently studio lighting always take fat photos of my face. :(

God bless!!

Jan 15 of Emoness

Really diggin this song right now!!

Anyways, just wanted to blog some stuff. Cause I've realized time passes so quickly and I have barely have any memories of what happened last year. And I think it's good to sorta jot down the emotions I was feeling and some events that happened in my life so you know, I have some things to look back at.

I don't know whether is it just me or it's just feelings that dwells within women without any reasons but I'm feeling lonely and abandoned lately. Feeling unloved and, ignored. Friends are busy, I am busy ; no one invites me out, I didn't ask anyone out. Just sitting at home wasting precious time away. And when I come to my senses I'll do my assignment, then pausing between periods thinking, why the heck am I such a loner!

I 9gag all the time, and some times I think it's because no one talks to me on facebook so I would just hop on to 9gag to feel entertained and find commonalities between 9gaggers and me. :')

But yea. nuff said, I wanna think positively. At least I have more time to do some deep thoughts and self realization and finish up the pokemon yellow etc. :') and maybe have more time for assignments...

Bitch please, when there's 9gag, I have no time for anything...


Talking about assignments... This week I'll be having 2 A3 sized Visual study on objects, 8 figure imagination, 1 Advertising Visual, 1 marker visual digital painting, and last but not least, ACRYLIC on portrait which needs to be passed up on Thursday! Wish me luck everyone! :)

God bless! Have a great week ahead!

等待

說放棄，哪有那麼的輕易？一直都在默默的等待，等待你的改變，等待你花心機哄我，等待你到我的門前來，告訴我一句話：‘對不起，我愛你’。

我那麼做，是有錯嘛？希望最好的一切能實現，原來會帶來更大的失望。

今天，終於瞭解了，你根本都不珍惜我。從頭開始，你只是要為自己狡辯而已。這四年的感情，對你來說都很敷衍的過嗎？

這些年你覺得你應該做的，都做了，但是你不知道的是，你一直都不想在我身上花心思。每次我煩你了，你就敷衍的打發我。你又知道那讓我多麼的討厭嗎？討厭自己為甚麼一直讓你這樣對我。

說了這些，我是很喜歡你。可是今天，我給你的最後一次機會，你自己放棄了。

朋友都問我，你好嗎？傷心嗎？口頭說沒事，沒挽救了。但心裡都迫不及待的等你哄我。

默默的為你加油，默默的等待。現在終於知道了答案。

不等了，只能放下一切，向前走。

2012

So every year I sorta would put up a new year's resolution on my blog. Just for the sake of having a goal so I have something to keep myself in track. No harm having NYR right. So this year I chose to be more practical. Something that I know I  would achieve. Something that would improve myself. So here goes!

1) Get a life.

For the past years I've been pretty much just living it like a wind. Didn't do anything interest or much at all other than rushing for assignments, face booking and you tubing. Just floating like a plastic bag. So yeah. I really want this year to be afresh and get out from the house and do some stuff that I will remember forever. ;)

2) Keep my hair below shoulder length or so.

At 1st I was thinking to put it as 'not cutting my hair for the whole year' But… Let's be real for new year's resolution. So yeah. I'm trying to grow out my fringe til chin length, so I'll only be cutting my hair after my fringe had grown out so I can restyle it. Trying to get through that awkward fringe length now! 

3) Enjoy drawing.

Since I've started The One Academy, there is no doubt that drawing had been part of my life routine day by day, week by week. But it's because of that, drawing had became something like an obligation I would say. Something that I must do. Gradually, the fun level of drawing decreased as workload increased. (Sounds like some hypothesis haha!) But it's true. So now I'm trying to manage my time properly so drawing would be more enjoyable and fun!

4) Manage time well.

As what I've mentioned above, I have a very bad time management sense so my assignments were all a rush and I have no time for other things like going out with friends or skyping with my loved ones ;).

5) Read my bible everyday! And Go to church more often!

It had been in my new years resolution every year and I'm not proud to say this but I've not been going church that often. And reading my bible everyday sorta only last til March every year. 

6) Be more outgoing.

Ok I can officially say I am born an introvert. It's hard to convert people like me to be an extrovert. I'm your typical social awkward penguin. I can be crazy and fun when I'm with people that I'm close to, or comfortable with. If I don't really know you, or I feel that you do not treat people around you sincerely, I just don't feel like speaking much cause it just doesn't really matter to anyone whether I talk or not. But yea, I'm trying to be more 'friendly' or whatever you call it. Cause somehow I feel like I do not have any friends around me. I wanna go out or chill I have no one to bring along with. So lifeless.

7) Live a healthier lifestyle.
That includes, drinking more water, sleeping early (That doesn't sound practical huh, but trust me with the right time management, sleeping is definitely possible for our major, plus recently I've been sleeping before 2am, which normally I sleep around 4-5am), doing some exercise, facebook less!

8) Spend money wisely.

I'm a shopaholic. Mild case. So, whenever I have money in hand, I'll tend to spend it ALL. So yea, hopefully this year I can save some money. I know with the whole apocalypse prophecy thing going on, I should like spend all my money by December. But, once again, lets be practical aite? :) If Jesus' coming back, then so shall it be.

9) Stop overthinking stuff.
I tend to think alot. Analyze alot. And, at some point those things would sorta grow bad. Plus, giving me alot of gray hair T_T. So yeah. Just wanna live my life and not thinking about the what ifs.

So yeah. That's about it. This year I have this quote for cheering me throughout 2012.

'If you put your mind to it, you can accomplish anything. ' - Marty McFly

I keep looking down at myself. Thinking that I'm not good at anything. So yea, trying to boast my confidence and do more than what I thought I could.

Have a great 2012 everyone! :)

God bless!

♥ First Crush ♥

Just finished watching a Thai movie called ' A little thing called Love' which tells a story of how a girl had been trying to change herself (in a good way) for a guy that she had been secretly admiring. It's a really nice chiclit movie which I think pictures almost every teenage girl during her high school years. But the ending was sorta too fairy-tale-ish as such a hot guy would actually fall in love for a nerdy girl? Somehow that doesn't happen in real life. Maybe, but one in a million I'm guessing. The girl's transition from a super nerdy girl to a very pretty girl was very real and awesome, that actually added a lot of points for me of how much I love this movie. haha!

The movie actually reminded me of how I used to be. I'm not saying that I drastically changed my apearance and I look so pretty and hot, which I am not, I'm just saying like how I would wanna change myself for a guy I liked for a good 2 long years. I admit I did a lot of naive mistakes when I was in high school but yea, I believe I ended up pretty good right now. The mistakes didn't ruin my life I suppose but at that point it was like end of the world to me.
So yea, I used to like this guy in my high school. He's, at least to me at that time, super handsome, cute, mysterious, tall, smart, and funny. And he was popular in school too. Yeah, he's like the ultimate dream guy for me back then. hahaha! So I got to know this guy when I was around form 2. And as you guys know, I was a super nerd. I was dark, nerdy, slouchy, with the worst haircut, no boobs nor bootie (until now also. sad..) nyeh, I wasn't exactly the popular type of girl, I'm like the type you would typically see sitting at a corner and being ignored (either that or being treated like a guy).

(First from the left)

This is a picture to show you how unattractive I was. LOL! Fun shot. HAHA

see the resemblence? HAHAHAHA.

We actually started talking in msn. So everytime I would wait for him to message me, then I'll get super duper excited and happy, if he didn't I would always wonder why he didnt, was he busy, etc.

In the movie, the girl asked permission to go to the toilet and she actually took a longer route to the toilet by passing by the guy's class. Which, that was what I used to do. His class was actually upstairs of mine. I always try to find excuses to pass by his class so I could get a glance of him. HAHAHA. Yeahhh. I actually did that. Sounds very desperate right. But I'm just your average teenage girl. hahaha. And another year which I think is during form2, his class was actually right opposite mine I think, in another block, so I would always try to look out the window to see him. And right after recess or before school starts I think we would all gather outside of our classes, I would always look right opposite and aim for him. haha. then wave. ;) hahahha!

Come to think of it, I actually learned Photoshop and gotten into all these designing things because of him. He was in the editorial board so I was quite hoping I could get in so I get to see him. HAHA. yeah. pfft. So I tried to pick up some skills and I managed to join the team. Yeehaww. Then on I get to see him a bit more than usual. Another thing I would really look forward to school is because I would get to talk to him or say hi to him before school starts. Me and my friends would gather at a spot everyday and he would come over, or, somehow just pass by that spot. I'm like so tactical right. LMAO.

The thing of all these is that I didn't know how he felt for me. Cause we never actually confessed. I was really confused, I didn't know whether he had feelings for me or not, I somehow kept myself thinking that its impossible, I'm so ugly and he's like one of the most popular guy in school and there are so many pretty girls in school that likes him. I don't even stand a chance. I started to wear contact lens, and like do other diff things to my appearance just so I would look better. I try to work harder so I won't be look down on. But yea. I don't regret anything cause all that made who I am today. And the guy most prolly didn't know all the silly and childish things I've done hahahha! After form3 I had to move to Penang. So that's when I don't get to see him forever. just kidding. But I really don't get to see him anymore so the only way is just to forget him, which was really really hard. I guess firsts are always hardest to forget. It's like you see that person every single day in school and now you don't get to anymore. Bummer. But when you get over your first crush, things are somehow, easier, like for me, confessing to someone or talking to the person I like seems a little easier than how it was.

So yeah, It was fun reminiscing about my high school life. XD!

God bless! Good night!

Ways to get Fairer Complexion!

Hey all! Been really busy lately but coping real well. So anyways, for this blog post I would really wanna share the ways of having fairer complexion. I know most girls would actually want fair skin. And I'm one of them. Don't get me wrong, females with dark skintones are actually really sexy and attractive, like Kim Kardashian, Megan Fox, Jennifer Lopez and the list goes on and on! But personally for me, dark skintone doesn't suit me at all. I look super odd when my skin was tanned. As pictured below:

Can you spot which one's me? hahaha. The one at the most right. LOL. Super tanned right! This was after I was exposed long hours under the sun wihout proper sun protection regime done. Yeah, I'm so dumb. I totally screwed up my skin. The sun is good but too much of that with all the UV rays, I think alot of cells just died :(.
Ok so throughout the months and years I desperately want to have healthy fair skin. So I did a lot of research and tried products after products to achieve the fairness. Bear in mind, if you're borned with dark skintone, it would be impossible for you to be as fair as a caucassian or whoever korean actresses or whatnot unless you bleach yourself, inject yourself with those skin whitening thingies or you paint yourself. Somehow I feel that people get the misconception that to be fairer, the products are actually peeling off layers of your skin to achieve that or like a 'bleaching' process. But it's actually the process of returning your skin colour to the original skin colour you were born with.

The following techniques would only work for people that has fair skin to start with just that because we live in Malaysia, humid and hot country with blazing sun for 365days throughout the year, eventually became darker and uneven skintone (tanned skin on the hands and legs).

So the simple ways to be fairer I have categorized it to two groups, Cure and Prevention.

Cure
Firstly is to cure your tanned skin, to heal your skin so that it would regenerate new skin cells faster hence you will get fairer quicker. The way to do it is through your daily skincare regime.

1) Whitening skincare products
Replace either one of the skincare steps to a whitening product. (Eg. Use a toner with whitening properties, the rest has no whitening purposes.) I find that if I use whitening products for all of my skincare products (Cleanser, Toner, Moisturizer) it would be too harsh on my skin. Normally I would replace my cleanser with a whitening cleanser.

2) Hydrate Skin
Most importantly remember to Moisturize your skin!!
Hydrated skin = healthy skin = Fast cell regeneration = Faster fairer skin.
So use a moisturizer that really hydrates your skin. Gel or cream, make sure you pick the right one, cause I had an epic problem with cream moisturizers, so yea, some people might break out after using cream moisturizers and some would find that gel is too drying for their skin. So yea. It differs from one to another. 

4) Whitening Serum
So if your skincare regime is set, as in you must use these certain basic products, maybe you can add in a step instead of replacing - Whitening serum. They work great! Hada Labo offers a great range of whitening products, do check it out!

5) Exfoliate!

Exfoliating would remove the dead skin cells (The main cause of dull skin tone) on your face. It encourages cell regeneration and takes away the dullness almost instantly! I use St. Ives Apricot Scrub. Works great and I like coarse exfoliants! If you have dry skin, you might wanna use mild exfoliators (Dermalogica Daily Exfoliator is really nice!)

Okay, now we're done with the skincare, it's time for your dietary!
6) DRINK alot of WATER!
And eat food like celery, green veges and fruits that has high anti-oxidant properties. Just keep your body healthy so it would work perfectly, hence again, cell regeneration would be faster. Yeah, it's all about cell regeneration!

7) Whitening Body Products
Not forgetting our body, for me I used all whitening soap and lotion. For this I did a lot of research cause the body is the hardest part to get fair because of the constant exposure to the sun (driving, walking, sitting next to the window, etc.).

So I found out that there's this soap called LIKAS papaya soap which is great at whitening the skin. But it can only be purchased in the Philipines. Thank God my mother always travels to the Phillipines so I managed to get my hands on it. This soap is A.w.e.s.o.m.e! You can google to find reviews online :).
Like seriously, my skin got so much fairer after using it for 1month. The single bar lasted me for 3 months so I guess it's worth the price (Around RM10)! Screw those super expensive whitening body shampoo and lotions! hahaha.

So anyways, since it's a soap, it will be drying, so I topped it off with Vaseline's Whitening lotion. I love this lotion! Not sticky and greasy at all! It absorbs to the skin like straight away. and the scent is lovely. *thumbs up* So yeah, maybe you guys would wanna check it out. Oh if you want the soap, I have tons of it at home, cause I stocked it up like a lot. If you wanna try it, then do tell me alright, I can sell it to you. :) Sorry that I can't just give away because it's quite costly for a soap if I give it out to everyone.

Okay, now let's talk about Prevention. This is the step that you need to continue doing it, FOREVER! Hahaha, if you wanna maintain having fair skin that is. The Cure steps are only when you are tanned and if you have already turned to the fairness you want, you can just skip the cure step and only go for prevention steps. Get it? Hehe alright. This step is to give your skin time to heal itself daily, let it resume itself to it's original skintone and prevent furthur damage done to the skin by UV rays and what not.

Prevention is easy, all you have to do is
1) Stay away from the sun.
This sounds really ridiculous but what I did was, for example, if I wanna walk from a building to another, first I would aim for a shady spot, then get prepared, head on dashing towards the shade and then rest, then the cycle just goes on and on for the whole journey there until I reach the building. It works :) HAHA Another way, which is less stupid, is to use an umbrella. But i really dislike carrying an umbrella wherever I go so yeah.

2) Use sunscreens!
Preferrable SPF30+++ Not lower than that nor higher. I read that sunscreen that has SPF above 30 it would do damge to your pores, as in clog the pores. Normal sunscreen will already clog your pores if you don't use makeup remover to remove it everynight before you sleep, but high SPF would clog your pores even more and even make you break out. So yeah. Remember to remove the sunscreen before you sleep everyone! Well apparently I'm allergic to sunscreens. I tried Biore's milk sunscreen, Neutrogena's Daily Sunscreen and they all broke me out. So I don't use sunscreens daily unless I'm going to the beach, or I know I will be out in the sun for an event or something, then I will use them. If not, I will just stick to hiding away from the sun. Works okay for me. haha!

3) Drink a lot of water and stay healthy!
Remember, cell regeneration is super important!

7 months after following the regime.

Okay so that's all to share! That's how I turned fairer. I did become fairer after 1 month of this routine, but to be honest it took me 2 years to actually become this stage of fairness (4 shades lighter than the photo of me above) I'm currently a MAC NC15/NW20 not sure which one cause I have foundations in both shades, still I think I am not fair enough :( Cause of the uneven skintones on my body so I know I can still be fairer. *fingers crossed* But it's good enough I guess! It takes time for your body to heal itself so just be patient alright!! :)

So Yeah, I hope this helped out y'all!

And this is a photo I took outside of my balcony. When I saw this sight I was in shock! Had to run to get my camera and shoot it quickly. It only lasted for 5mins? Not sure, but a really really short time. Then the rays slowly faded away and the sun had set. God IS AMAZING!!! Only He can create such beautiful things.
God bless you!

Pea, Lettuce & Lemon Soup

So finally once in my life I've made a soup out from scratch. :)
And it came out really good, tasted really similar to the one I've tried in Suffolk. So I guess it's not a super hard soup to make after all since the ingredients are just a few and the steps were easy. If you're a non-vege lover, you disgust of vege, or you hate the colour green, then I would say this is definitely not the soup for you. Haha. So lets get to it!

I've done the recipe with reference from the 200 really easy recipes by Louise Pickford.

Recipe serves 4.
Ingredients:
Soup
2 tablespoon of butter
1 large onion, finely chopped
425g (14oz) frozen peas
2 Little Gem lettuces, roughly chopped
1 litre vegetable/ chicken stock
Grated rind and juice of lemon
salt and black pepper
Finely chopped mint 


Croutons
2 thick slices of Multigrain bread, cubed
1 tablespoon olive oil

Machines(lmao)
Oven
Stove
Blender/Processor

Make sure you defrosted the peas and wash all the vegetables thoroughly alright!

(I actually have taken all the pics but they were all in my Macbook so yeah. I lost my laptop so everything went with it. Sorry guys)

 First off, prepare your chicken stock. I just used those concentrated ones and add in water to it. 7 teaspoon to 1 litre of water. Apparently I got the chinese herbal stock wan so yea, super asian taste to it, LOL, cause of the herbs and stuff, but yeah, did made the stock a little more saltier than usual.

Next, keep your chicken stock boiling, and melt your butter in another pot. Add in the finely chopped onions after it had melted. Cook gently for around 5 mins until the onions had softened..

After that it's time to add in the Greens and Yellows!
Add in the peas first, give it a toss around the pan, then the lettuce, followed by the lemon juice. Then grate the lemon zest into the soup.

Add in some salt and pepper for taste then bring it to the boil then reduce the heat, cover and let it simmer for 15minutes.

At the mean time we can prepare the croutons babeh! Just cut your bread into cubes, lightly coat it with olive oil in a roasting tin, and toss them in the preheat oven (200 celcius) for 10 minutes or until golden.

When your soup is done, let it cool and then transfer it to a blender. Blend well.
Transfer it back to the pot and heat it up.

After that it's time to serve! Isn't that easy?
Top the soup with the croutons and mint!

So yeah, it's that easy! So I'm quite satisfied with the soup. Great book really! :D

God bless you!